the old days

last night i hanged out with my older friends who are all in college & it was so nice seeing them. it was so fun, they havent changed at all they still silly & stupid & love to have fun. it was fun made me think of back in the day, when i was a sophmore & i started to hang out with the older cooler kids, the seniors. i love cross country, i love micheal, lester, andrew, scotty wong, fucking ska kids. haha horribly good music i suppose. it was nice & i enjoyed it.

For: Sarah, Dwain, Shelly, Ashley, Gino, Kiki, Megan & You.
we run far away from those monsters we called maturity, farther we get the more adventures we explore through the forest with animals we never scene to the roaring river we must jump across and hope we make it. and save each other from the furious creatures. we skip by the sorrow & drive in the ocean of love where joy runs through our veins, we are at the highest of the high this must be what heaven feels like. we will stumble and mumble words of our soul the deepest fears of life that should never be told. we begin to crumble yet remain alive because we know even if we lose it all, we will have these loving memories on how we have super fun. and dream of those adventures we once had, because now we have to grow up and face these monsters. we will never die since we left our hearts in each other making us whole solid like a stone that can never we broken but can be scared.

For my Dad:
we drink this juice for the old. creating problems and mayhem with words in a mumble our thoughts all jumbled my soul begins to crumble. this thought of you and your death how lonely you've must of been it's my mistake for not realizing and for letting you go from my life. you made me who i am, without you i wouldnt know these things i know. i'm not smart but i know more about life now then most people take a life time to find the meaning of life. we must breath, and make our heart beat. since its not like a light which you can turn off and on but we have the emotions we explore and cannot control. our hearts take control of this body but our brain tries to grow. our minds are mazes to the heart. on what root you can take and we hope we dont get lost and when we do we learn from t he mistake we choose & hopefully we learned. all mistakes are important because if we dont conquer them we'll learn to in fall in the hole we dug. so lets take on life and dear nothing but ourselves since we really dont have each other. we have ourselves. i am my own best friend. i dont need anyones help.

if only i could be super man to save the world from sorrow. no one deserves to be sad. people act the way they because of the experiences they went though & thats why people are so bitter & cold. when really they need that warm yellow light pouring onto them. i just want to be that light & i hope i am that light in your life. because you life is important to me. so good friends, never doubt yourself. i'll always be your best friend.

people who matter to me now & forever no matter what: mother, charlene, kento, kenta, duan magno, sarahbaby, ivan, andymo, alli mitchell, david minoru hitotsu, micheal chen, danielle rice, sam muffin, bella, dwain, dee to the lanie, chasie poo, joshie scotty poo, cassie sakai.
this list can never shrink but it'll always grow.

i think i starting to enjoy being alive. thank you friends, especially sarah, thank you for helping me live life.